I don't know whether those words of yours are meant for me, if they really are for me, then I wish to let you know, I'm sorry if I really did hurt you, but have you ever realize, that you've hurt me badly as well?

        Last Saturday night, I've had a beautiful dream, or a beautiful nightmare if you want to put it. It was of us, walking back home, we were talking, and you were smiling, even thought I didn't show the slightest curve on my lips... We even said goodbye when we reached our own home...

        It was really beautiful... I guess this is why they call is a 'dream' because it is happening oppositely in reality...

What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

        Trust? I cant seem to find one in anyone, only disappointments I find in everyone, even myself. If being regular means being fooled, then I rather evolve into a greater form.

        Too much struggle I've been through in my life, the good and evil tango in me is slowly rotting apart, turning into bones, strangling one another to survive. Alas, they both failed and rotted into nothing more but mere bones...

        But, they made a pact, if being as 2 bodies and souls doesn't comes compatibility, why not just merge? For my reincarnation is completed, I once again rise from the dawn of a new life, as a dark sun, giving out darkness to whoever I gaze, slicing apart whoever that stands in my way! In the name of the Whisperer!!

        It's been a while since I've been so close to you, every thoughts I had in my mind just disappears when I saw you. 

              

        As stars lean down to kiss you, I lie awake because I miss you, and by thinking about you, I don't feel so alone. How can a whisperer whisper when no one's there to listen? Maybe I'll make a move? After all, you are the one to make the decision, so I guess by doing so I won't break my promise?

        Why is this thought of mine, a thought of my time come in mind once again? Maybe is because in this world, every action took by everyone only cared for themselves, and not considering how other's feel... some even commented on one's action while he himself does the same......

        Why does human fear death? Why can't they think of death the other way? Death is no more but a cycle of life, when one dies, he will be reborn into life once again, only losing memory. But for me, what is left to live in a selfish world like this? I rather be outside of this world, to another world in my mind......