Have anyone ever felt the same way before? Both regret and sad feeling... a feeling which you could never explain...

        It all started when I told her those things... it was awful. Right now, I wish that she'd forget about me and find someone else, it is better this way for I had hurt her way too much... I will disappear from her life, preventing myself from being an obstacle in her life, blocking her future...

        There's no forgiveness in my action. I will do anything, even if it means sacrificing myself, to protect and save her... most importantly, to repay my debt to her..